Connection

(more photos)

Bako National Park is a very wonderful place. Well, what can I say?? The invitation came by surprise and I just gladly take it, cause I am going back into the embrace of mother nature. And without preparing much I took my step and joined this two pretty friend of mine and embark on a totally impromptu journey ( for me ).

Things to take note :

1. STRICTLY no food infront of the monkeys, even things that look like food. The monkeys actually robbed make me unwillingly turn over my bag of rubbish, not knowing what will it do if I don't comply. Seeing it chewing the plastic bag and devour it really makes me worried if I've had killed this monkey by "offering" something inedible, which is later denied by professionals over there, stating that they are just merely keeping food in their pouch on both sides of cheek. Still, the monkey successfully make me the ultimate litterer in the national park, spraying my bag of rubbish everywhere in the park compound.

2. I sat down on one random path, switch on my music player on random, and just play with the grass around with the two of them. I simply thinks that the moment is beautiful. I don't think the activities or the places matter, but it's the people and the memories that matters. 

3. Doing all sorts of crazy things during the entire trip. Threw a piece of biscuit toward a bunch of monkeys and run away straight after that, while the monkeys fight to death over the piece of carbohydrate and polysaccharides. Ran like a crazy man when we came to long stretch of straight road. Doing impromptu long jump competition. All that little fun moments simply make the trip memorable. I kinda get the meaning of the wise word " It's not the destination that's important, it's the journey" already. traveling with this kind of people ROX.

Anyways, finally there's picture of my own to post in my wordposts, instead of unoriginal tumblr pics Ha.

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Recently watched this Pacific Rim movie. Rated : 9/10

This is the only movie that make we awed in wonder like a 10-year-old for a very very long time.

Lotsa BOOM and KAPOW in the movie, which makes everything so awesome. The plot, expression, emotion, story, soundtrack, image, twist, surprise are perfect and right in their places. 

One element that intrigued me the most is the drifting of two human minds.

In the film, a Jaeger's neural load is too much for a single pilot to handle alone, meaning they must first be psychically linked to another pilot—a concept called "Drifting". When pilots Drift, they quickly gain intimate knowledge of each other's memories and feelings, and have no choice but to accept them.

Come to think of it, if we really do have the ability to achieve drift with another person, how well can we accept a person as a whole? Often times we are focused on the bright side of a person and oftern neglected his flaws and imperfections, and thus causing real separation when we really start to get to know that person.

So what if from the start we can gain complete understanding of another person, can we go against the norm of this world, stay even though we know that he/she can't be perfect as we thought, or should we just give up that instant, and continue to seek for perfection in the midst of the flawed?

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We connect with people when we shared a same interest, a same topic of conversation, or a common goal. And once a connection is made, it will form an attachment that clings on your mental flesh, which simply hurts when you tries to break away from this attachment.

Well, I guess what I am trying to say is.

I don't know what should I do for now.

I connected with You and I have to be dead careful now.

History doesn't repeats and teaches us nothing.

I am still trying to put that little ounce of hope in you.

My tiny bits of gambling chip,

all in for you.

Or perhaps I should just draw back and fold, and perhaps lost what I've already put in.

I don't know. Cause you said goodbye. Which is a very honest and heartbreaking thing to do.

and you will never know, how painful is this aching in my heart when I am not sure with what future that I am handling over in YOUR hands

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People Change

Here's a little change of me for the time being....

Before.

The long long long Korean-styled hair

Short and clean.

Credits to my friend Kelvin Tan for taking all this trouble to take this photo and Photoshop-ed so it is viewable. along with a couple of other friends =) I like the name of the album, Grown Up because it really showed how much we have changed down the years.

If I were to take out a photo of mine when I younger and compare it with me now, I don't think i can imagine how can the naive guy in the picture can grow and matured into a guy like me today. There's just too much that I've been put through these years and I believe that, if I have not encountered these, my nature will be far far deviated from who I am today.

If you get what I mean. Heh.

People change.
As we are all subjected to changes somewhere in the road of life, and when the time comes, we will changed into that someone who no one never recognises. I think it sorta explains why some people sometimes thinks that certain person have changed.

So are they aware of the change thenselves? I really hope not.
So if they do have the ability to sense the change, can they stop it? I really hope not.

Cause that way, I would be more comforted by the fact that She changed because she can't help too. I really hope so.

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Flight date to Mysore, Karnataka, India is confirmed to be on the 25th of July.

The feeling of leaving is so real for me now, and it's really something big to take in.

Leaving for sure will bring up lotsa feelings, cause I for one doesn't love to say goodbye and leave.

Now in this swirling pond of thoughts of mine, I hope I can find the way to express myself better soon.

Love

Finally I have met you....

You are so pretty in a way that I am breathless the first time when I lay my eyes on you.

Your beauty is unmatchable.

And the sound of you smiling seems to brighten up my day.

You are so capable of making things work, even other peers will bow down at your supremacy.

I never knew how big a change can be when I am with you.

So magical
So powerful
So mystical

You changed my life..

LUMIA

GAGS. =)

LUMIA say HI =D

So finally I got the first smart phone of my life, Nokia Lumia 720. It is basically a smartphone with windows 8 as operating system, with LIVE TILES (tm) that updates you basically with everything going on in your life phone at a glance, which is really convenient when you can basically do everything on the same page in the phone.

The interface is kinda cool for me and I simply love the fact that i can customized the live tiles any way i want, not to mention I can generate my own live tiles with its own special function and pictures in it. =) Simply Lovin' it.


The "take meds" is a calendar entry asking me to take typhoid immunisation at a clinic, if you do notice. Real convenient hehe.

And say bye bye to TUmblr PICS pure tumblr pic blogposts. =) manage to take a pic using the so called carls zeiss lens, pretty awesome though.. compare to other phones :

Pretty awesome right? =) LUMIA says : " see you soon! "

Looking through a looking glass

I love this for no apparent reason.
I mean, there's basically no harm done on the turtle right??
Then what is the "Do Not Touch" sign doing over there?? DX

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Life should be happy. And simple.

At one random instance me and my certain friend talked about out dreams.

My dream is that "the world will be a better place, and everybody will be happy"

And she says that the dream is very Noble.

Wow, is it?

I just don't wish to see bad things happening in this world, as I am born naturally with empathy. I tend to take other's problem as mine, and be stress over it. Looking at people suffer, I can't help but feel like  doing something for them in order to get them out, or else I'll continue to feel bad, silently.

They say that I tend to worry too much for other people, and in the end screw myself over. 

Luckily i made it and manage to pull through and survived.

p.s. Just figuring that I am getting more and more talkative these days and pumped up with Thoughts. DX 

Take a Look. Owh Wait.. I am still in a blur. =/

I think I have come to a point of my life where I am faced with so much choices to be made. Being happy, for one is a choice made as an outcome of all tears shed and all dreams broken in the silence of the night. Somehow I think that this decision is so important for me that I would not want to be that crestfallen anymore, at least for the time being, for the cost for this happiness is just too great.

And also not forget to mention, there's a lot a lot of other choices need to made.

I have doubts, when I have to choose from two different choice, one that makes me happy; while another makes everything okay. I am puzzled and confused, which is the right choice?? And under the mysterious cover of both choices, which one lies the key to a perfect scenario?

I try to take a good look at the problem and perhaps I can suggest a hypothesis to the solution.
But owh wait...
I am still in a blur too.

Alright you got me. Good One.

=/


Two different forces existed and often clashes in this world.
Light and Dark.
Good and Evil.
Depression and Happiness.
The Logical and The Temperamental.
The Mind and The Heart.

Should we succumb to the heart, or the mind??

I do believe though, that both path will be equally winding, leading to a different Next Chapter, and the road not taken, will be left and forgotten, it's content and wonder will not be discovered. Quite a shame actually, that we couldn't rewind time to go back to the fork road that we used to spend so much time pondering on, and regret on our choices. The reality of the world is what that sucks.

Haven't been so stressed for a very long long long time already... I think I am a special creature which deviates from normal human nature, only stressing for things normal people treated lightly on.

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They say that concept of time is merely a creation of God. 

And we're living in this continuum, and bounded by it.

But God is omnipresent and omnipotent.

He is not bounded by time.

How cool it would be if we could get out of this continuum??

But if one day if human achieved breakfree from time-space continuum.

I don't think we'll be more happy than now.

Random

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Everyone is struggling

And holding to that last straw that is bound to break

Cause even if you choose to be happy

That doesn't mean the problem will be gone

Sadness lingers and you seem to have lost the right to cry.

Isn't it unfair, a bit?

The Pursuit Of Happiness

Changed my blogspot theme to something lighter and of more radiance. Just simply because I feel that all the constant cryings and self-pitying should be put to stop, and in turn, introduce a sunny element into the picture.

I never thought that I would make it out of this; just like the fact that I never expect people whom we can't leave without abandoned us, and without any remorse expect us to live with it.

That totally sucks, And that's why I need to get up again, because there are simply too much people who hope to see you rise again, and once again, be the one friend who use to smile along with them.

Life is a journey, and we are merely travellers who try to create precious memories in the presence of each other. And for that, I want to thank YOU. for your smile brightens up my Life.


Date of departure to India will be announced soon. Am mentally preparing myself for the new life.
Ciao.


with love,
KUALA LUMPUR INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT.
7:35pm

Nostalgia

我要用海水包容你，
不要让你受到伤害，
我要一生一世，
陪着你，
直到老，
直到永远
永远。。。。。
我的白鱼儿


It's one of those nostalgic days again.
When you allow memories to flood in, drown you in, and submerge you with ocean of emotions.

Kinda sadistic wasn't it, to open up your wounds again to see how you've been healing, and in the process hurt yourself once again. If you were me would you just choose to bury all these into the deep, and choose to never look at it again? Would it be better to recount it as bad luck, and move on??

I would love to remember
though it feels stupid
I would love to held on these shards of memories
even though it would cut me up again if i were to hold it again.

It's funny how people choose to believe in hurtful comments given by those whom they care the most, 

But ignore those encouraging ones given by those who care about them.

I was lose in tears when I muster the courage to look into your world of words again.

How I wish the time will turn back, and the world will change back to how it used to be.

But however the world might be out of the course,

It will feels normal again, given enough time,

And when it doesn't hurt anymore, 

It means you are finally liberated.

Finally free.