That was a Long Hiatus Eh?

I'm back.

That's right, I am finally back.

As I slowly faded away from this realm where I can freely articulate my thoughts and shape them into blocks of words, many things happened and need lotsa time to get adjusted to, and in the end, I just disappeared, fade into black.

I never thought I will be back again, and I thought this is the point of my life when I need to say goodbye to this place where I have been abiding in for shelther, to this peaceful sanctuary of mine in the chaos. I thought I would lose it forever, as a guy who once think that he would never ever stop blogging.

I thought I am shutting the door, locking it, and walking away, and never remembering it again.

But I didn't.

I came back, because I just can't stand the ache of losing something which had done so much for me, something so dear. This place had selflessness take in all my disappointment, anger, thoughts, perceptions, happiness, hollowness without any reserve, and most importantly with no judgement at all. And who am I if I am hearty enough to leave this realm which had done so much for me?

And I am glad I am back.

Better than ever.

So what changed??

Life changes. Everyone changes. Nothing is the same if you are peeking through the same looking glass I was using the last time you read my post. Everything is constantly changing, or constantly exert, or being exert on, the force of change. Its ever-changing.

I am happier.
I found a reason to smile again.
I think I had gone astray, a bit.
I start to love Indian food, though the rest of my batchmates are still having this unknown hate towards these foods.
I become a more organized person, and therefore are often times troubled by minute matters that the Me in the past wouldnt give a damn to. Those academic, procedurial stuffs, and stuffs.
I think less.
I lost a friend to Atypical Pneumonia.
I lost hope and faith in many things.
I have had my share of sadness and sorrows, my routine of sleepless night.
And I am still holding on.

And oh btw, I got a twitter account. ^^

My friend told me if I compiled all my tweets (which is a total freaking huge number of 3000 tweets in short 2 months), they will be just about the length of a few blogs. But I think what I said here is more real than anything that I can disclose at anytime of the day, anywhere else. And this makes this place real. And I guess that's why I stayed, instead of moving on?

Well, I do realize without the honing of my blogging skills, my blogpost become a bit of unfluent and it sounds just... less interesting. But Anyways, I am just glad I am back.

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Sometimes I think happiness and contentment in life is so simple.

It simply means losing grasp for the meaning of life, and finding new meaning of life when the sun shines again, and most importantly, how we SMILED in between.

We may lose hope, but doesn't mean we have to give up, and it doesn't mean its the end.

Perhaps, its the nature forcing us to look at the matter from a new angle?

We can only hope in times of doubts.