C'est La Vie

Who said You can enjoy in Universities?
Who said You can sit on green lawns with your fellow Uni-mates and laugh and have fun?
All those are bullcrap

LOL

University life is not fun at all.

So now advancing through my final year of Bachelor of Dental Surgery (BDS) studies, basically my daytime is divided into two main parts: Academic Studies and Clinical Postings.

Academic studies are just the usual stuffs, lectures, hands on, and read the books, and sit for exam and yada yada but we actually get to have a feel of how our future work life would be like in Clinical postings.

Its basically like working, without license, which sounds kinda illegal, but its not illegal. But you get to get your hands on sometimes-annoying-sometimes-fun-to-have-but-sometimes-pisses-me-off patient. Not to forget that I am not fluent with the local language in the first place, which make this an even more difficult task,

But fear not, we've all adapted, and I've slowly put on with this and starting to get kinda good at it (?)
For now, I just cant wait to finish my final year and be a happy intern, hopefully. =)

...

My mind keep on brings me back to those days when I open my eyes and the first thing I do is to get on that bicycle and meet up with them. We dont have much but we are all we had. Its one of the colouful chapter of my life which I wish I can go back to.

But now look at me, and looking back on the past that I used to have. I am lost momentarily to the sight of strangers looking into my face, saying things that I dont understand, sounding like they really understood me. But, no. They are nowhere near. They say Aquariuses are very analytical in thinking and that makes them really hard to understand, but I cant help but wonder, Isit really that hard? Isit really that taxing of an effort to understand me? Or I am just being really ungrateful here?

If this is True, why do I feel something is amiss in the midst of this seemingly so-perfect life?

If what we shared is real, why do I feel like crying inside but nothing came out?

Honestly, I just cant wait to end this chapter of my life and move on. 

Because, maybe, I am never irreplaceable in other's life in this chapter of my life.

I surrender