Weakness

Do you have that feeling when you have been doing something for a very long time and one day it snapped.

You cant find anymore meaning in doing the same thing again and again.

Whats the purpose of making the same choice to continue, to fight on anyways?

...

Perhaps its mistake to show your weakness.

I thought at first, that having weakness is a proof that you are a human

But no one, absolutely no one can handle you at your darkest, wildest rebellious self, at least not unconditionally.

and worst are those who rub salt on your wound when you open up to you.

And I was deeply humiliated, that I believed in humanity. That you of all people can provide a comfort or some sorts to my daylight nightmare. I've made a mistake, and I deeply disappointed in myself

And I vow to never make the same mistake again.

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Such incoherent writing, right?

Just goes to show what a mess I am in right now.

Looking forward to better days.