泪无痕

经过许久的挣扎，我们终于得到了结果。 他们要走了。

石兴牧师，章琴传道，谢谢你们这一年来的牧养，虽然时间只有短短的一年，但是你们的影响，对我来说却是多么的大。打从去年年尾你们搬进来时，我们本来只是单纯的“牧者”与“被牧养者”的关系，不熟。时间慢慢地给我们施加洗礼，慢慢地我认识了你们，你们认识了我。是你们慢慢的接近我，与我建立一个美好的关系，与我们这一班少年人打成一片。慢慢的，你们不只是我们的牧者这么简单的关系，你们成为了我们的朋友。一年的朝夕相处，根本不够，相逢恨晚。

石兴牧师，当初一眼看到你总觉得你象一只癞蛤蟆 （抱歉！＝P），也听说你和少年人玩在一起也蛮疯的。在相处的日子里，你不只牧养了我，也与我分享了许许多多的个人故事，经验。你与师母的故事，也告诉了我，还教我如何面对人生，也解答了我心中许多许多的难题。

章琴传道，每次看着你那缅甸的笑容，心里温暖了许多。对我来说，你完美地显示出了一个事奉上帝的仆人的温柔与温顺。在相处的日子里，你无怨无悔，十分耐心地教导我如何处理少团里许许多多公式的东西。虽然有时我懒散，把事情做得不好，又有时忘东忘西，是你时时刻刻地提醒我。也不见得你生我的气，反而一再耐心地提醒我。谢谢。

Samuel & Stephanie, 你们真是一对可爱的孩子，是你们让我重温儿童的童真，你们的可爱，真是让人疼爱，你们勇敢地上台唱歌，真是让我佩服。Samuel，我真不知你是个多才多艺的小孩！Stephanie, 你真是太惹人爱了！！

牧师，师母，你们也让我见识到你们温柔又美好的感情。记得有一次牧师喉咙不舒服还要带祷告会，师母看了就拿了一瓶水和一粒糖，说 “帮我拿给牧师，他今天喉咙痛，拿水和糖给他……”我当时听了真的感到无比感动 （虽然我不是当事人）， 这样的感情不用甜言蜜语， 简单的一个行动，就是爱的表现了。

但是如今，牧师你要到别的堂会事奉了。短短一年的相处，我毕生难忘。师母，我也十分感激你与我们相处的时光。我会在主里思念你们，记得，我们相约在主里。

Dear Santa

Dear Santa,

I have been a really good boy this year, i do good, i study hard, and i changed alot to become a better person. For this year i did put in a lot of effort to work on my bad habits such as procrastinating, lying, being a bad liar, being lame and bla bla bla. i even done a lot of deeds, including bring joy to people. Here's some of my pics during christmas:




I saw a professional solo practice.



I witnessed a choir group which brought joy over me with their joyful singings.



I've made a stupid microphone stand by using a broken stand and wires...



being with Santa (sadly, your impersonator)



And Santalina, your assistant



Played with horns. XD


And got crushed by a stupid big white boulder.. XX

You see santa?? i'm a good good boy, and i didn't cause you any trouble for this christmas. So, can i have the present that i want so much. PLEASE??? i want it so much that i promise i'll be good for the coming Christmases. I'll be a good boy, a good young man, and finally a good man. please santa???

I just want someone i really cared about to be with me for this Christmas. Can you give it to me ??

Signed,
Joshua

10 advices for Young People.

1. “Life is not fair - get used to it.”
-> The world is never fair. You know this? You can never change the whole world. Injustice still exists in the current society, so you should try to adapt.

2. “The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.”
-> Your extreme self-esteem may make your job inconvenient. Don't attach too much significance on your self-esteem as people care about your achievements rather than it.

3. “You will NOT make 40 thousand dollars a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice president with car phone, until you earn both.”
-> Normally you can't be rich if you have just finished high school. However to become an executive, you need to obtain both: a high school certificate and the money.

4. “If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss. He doesn't have tenure.”
-> Don’t complain that your boss is tough. When you are at school, your teachers always stand by you whenever you meet problems. However if you have thought that all your problems really come from the hard requirements of your teachers, you shouldn't look for a job. Simply if there aren't strict demands from your company, you will do nothing and quickly become unemployed. Then nobody will give you a hand.

5. “If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.”
-> Don't blame your failure on your destiny. All you need now is to stay calm and start from scratch.

6. “Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you are. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.”
-> You should show your gratefulness to your parents for spending most of their lives for your living and growth. All the “outdated” of your parents today is the price they have to pay for your growth.

7. “Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life may not. In some schools they have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as many times as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.”

-> Keep in mind that you can always become a leader, so that you will have more motivation to strive for your career.

8. “Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you find yourself. Do that on your own time.”
-> Don’t always wait for holidays or you will be left behind your colleagues. That backwardness means elimination and unemployment.

9. “Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.”
-> Everybody likes watching TV, but you shouldn't watch it too much. As that actually isn't your life and your thinking will be influenced. You yourself have to determine your own life.

10. “Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.”
-> You should be nice to everyone. Life has happenings you could never expect. Be open to your boss, don’t say bad things behind his back as it will bring you nowhere.

Saphira

Recently as for the aftermath of SPM exam, I start to read again, and this time I’m read Bringsir, the third book of Eragon : Inheritance cycle.

It’s basically about a farm boy, Eragon, who found a dragon named Saphira which they in the end turned out to be mate in battling the Empire as they are sandwiched between different forces such as the varden, dwarfs, elves and etcetera, etcetera…. It’s a worth-to-read book which I recommend you guys shouldn’t miss, as it has a combination of action, thriller, romance, mystery, and astounding suspenses.

One think I like the most about the story is the intimacy that bonds Eragon and Saphira, as their relationships as Rider and Dragon heightens. Between them there’s one invisible telepathic connection which allows them to communicate all time, all place. And Saphira, whose wisdom and knowledge outmatched all living things, always prove that she’s really reliable when Eragon search for help, or when he suffered from all sorts of predicament.

As I read along the story, I found out that I actually grown envious with the close relationship that Eragon and Saphira share. It’s like when you feel that all hope is gone and you feel really bad, and then there’s this warm voice that sound like “Little one…. How are you??” coming to you, providing you security and inner peace.. Note that Saphira never failed to know what Eragon is thinking and with his superb wisdom and knowledge, she solved Eragon’s problem. How I hope I have a companion or mate like this, whose mind is literally linked to mine, and understands what I want or feel….. How I wish I will find this sapphire egg which waited to be hatched in my garage. How I wish that someone will understand me as much as how Saphira understands Eragon.

SPM : day 11

Finally, Bible knowledge is being done away and sadly, it's not a good ending that we wanted, to end our secondary years....

From now on my occupation will not be "student", it'll be changed to "unemployed". Yes, I'm currently UNEMPLOYED!!!!

however, i'm not so used to my new found freedom. can't do whatever that i want to do, can't play comp till gila, can't do this, do that... haiz..... i hope i can fill my free time with something meaningful..........

And Oh ya, things are really different now compared to what i expected. Nevermind, i'll just treat it as another stage of life. Hmph...

So that's all for now, sorry for this crappy post because i'm still in a glum state. Peace.

SPM : day 10

Another day passed and this time, more students are freed from this SPM grip, except for me. Yes, sadly and again i'm still not excluded from this crazy strenuos exam as the final paper is coming in 2 days time. This time i feel more lonely than ever, and i'm one of a few who were left out from the freedom after SPM.

anyway, Chinese paper is done for once and for all this time. Can't imagine some people actually forget which paper are they having first and next.


甚矣，(你)之不惠


找一天把你烧掉

anyway, have some fun with friends after the exam at The Tarot Cafe. (At first we want to go to COOCOOROM/KOKOROON/COCOROM but it closed during it's operating our, so we changed the venue in the last minute)


Stupid Blue Ocean Float, keep on leaking till the whole table is wet.






Thank you friends, you've made my day. =)

How much Does a Blogspot cost??

Recently i've been using this Web app to evaluate my Blog value, and here's how it looked :

RM 1396.88

Anyway, it's just only thousands while other websites or other blogspots may costs up to millions or hundred thousands, but for me, Stupiakboy.blogspot.com had played a very important role in my life.

As i remembered, i started my blogging career since 15 and till now, the age is 17, two and a half years of blogging journey. Been through Spring, Summer, Autumn, Winter (which i wish not to encounter), ups and downs, happy, sad, EMO, not-EMO, bla bla bla....

for me, This blogspot is the best place for me to cry out to, a place where i can hide my dirty little secrets. (since there's no much local readers. XD). And sometimes, it's a friend of mine who listens, when everyone turned a deaf year, when there's no one to listen to me. For me, it's a place where my heart truly lay.

Ever since i started blogging, i start to record occasional entries, concerning life, encounters at first, then thoughts start to slide in, philosophic writings sets in. Then in the end, it ended up as a site where you can know about everything about this little boy who once started out with nothing and now a website which worth RM 1369. It has all you need to know about me, and all things that i've experience, and all my sincere comments, no lies, a place like no other.

Trust me when i say "i promise", and i promise and assure you that everything i wrote in this site is 100% truth, no cover ups, no lies, no fake news trying to get attention. And to STALKERS, if you wish to stalk me, this will be a very good way to appoach me. =)

And for all this while, special thanks again to my foreign readers, who become the majority crowd among my readers and some of my close friends and buddies, who spend time hours and hours reading my blog, sometimes listening to my worthless crappings. I hope that all of you can gain benefit from my writings all these while, perhaps spiritually or physically (if you can link it somehow). And hope i didn't unintentionally spread any hatred or misconception or perhaps hurtful words through this medium.

I don't know how will i be without this place where i can fit all my thoughts in. Thank you my Blog. =)