Dear John

~"Dear John," the letter read. and with those two words, a heart was broken and two lives changed forever. When Savannah Lynn Curtis comes into his life, John Tyree knows he is ready to turn over a new leaf. An angry rebel, he had enlisted in the army after high school, not knowing what else to do. Then, during a furlough, he meets Savannah, the girl of his dreams. The attraction is mutual and quickly grows into the kind of love that leaves Savannah vowing to wait for John while he finishes his tour of duty. But neither can foresee that 9/11 is about to change the world. Like so many proud men and women, John must choose between love and country, Now, when he finally returns to North Carolina, John will discover how love can transform us in ways we never could have imagined...~

If you open up your eyes and see, you can see that life is never full of happy endings. Sometimes, however strong the love can be, something will might happened and changes everything. This is what the book which i read about recently tries to say. 


I never expected that the story will ended this tragic way, so tragic that i hate the story more than ever, got disappointed by how Savannah threw "I know that sounds like an excuse, but please believe me that i didn't mean to fall in love with someone else. If don't really understand how it happened, how can you??" and left with a broken-up John Tyree. I hate how John reacted to the crisis, trying so hard to change everything back to normal again but to no avail. I hate the reality of the world, that someone as wonderful as Savannah would have become someone so vicious and heartless. I hate why can I put myself in John's place because everything he went through feels so real to me, and it hurts.


Savannah is just so wonderful and adorable, and always kind and so goody-goody, even I fell in love with her as i read the novel at first. Everything was so wonderful, and it would merely be enough to say that it's perfect. But what happened later?? Why John had to get through all these desperations which no one will ever understands?? I find out that i can emphatized John Tyree easily as if i being through everything with him, or put it in another way, as if i've been through it myself.




As if I know how wonderful it is to have someone as wonderful as paradise, and it seemed you need nothing else in the world, except for the one you cared the most in your arms.


As if I know how it feels when all you need is just a simple promise, and it is the only thing that you can hold on to when everything falls apart


As if I know how it feels when something had changed between the two of you. Love is still strong, but it's losing the magical mortar that holds it together. And you became so desperate that you tried everything and breaks your nerves so that you can save everything back to normal again, but deep down in your heart you know that everything will soon go far worst.


As if I know how disappointment struck when you tried your hardest trying to change yourself, to suit the situation. But the as the more you try, the more it breaks, and you can only blame yourself,


As if i understand the excruciating remorse when someone whom you're holding so dear to slipped away from your arms, leaving you hopeless and lifeless. The reality that the harder you hold on to grains, the easier it slipped between your fingers.


As if i am John Tyree, and i am living in the same fear as he is in.




Everything in the books is just unbearably torturing and i can't take the fact that promises are meant to be broken and it ends just as a relationship ends. 


Anyway, well done to Nicholas Sparks, who drew all the pain from my past, bath me with all the regrets again, and teaches me to live out of it. It is a very well written book.