Here we go again

Three Point Turn

Side Parking

Prior to my second driving exam, after failing the first one (which is kinda unexpected). This morning i'm back to the usual place, same consortium, same parking lot, same scenery, same car. Everything brings back the memories on the day i have the previous test, the day i received my Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia result. Something not worth to be mentioned. Bad memories.

Now i should just keep up my consistency, remain dull for the rest of the day, and remind myself : DON'T SHOW OFF!!!

Sometimes i do think pride somehow consumed me causing some careless mistakes, but most of the time i'm really in the state of blur that i'll forget this and that. Sigh, the rate of going old among the youths is getting more and more rapid these days....

I'm just going to sleep early and get myself ready for tomorrow.

NIGHT PEEPS!

Promises are not meant to be broken. (updates)

Promises are bitterness coated in a sugarcoat. It's a liability to people who doesn't mean to keep it. It's a way to build up trust. It's something you would not want to simply give because failing to keep it will make you untrustworthy. So please, don't ever ever give a promise you can't keep, especially to those who have your full trust. If you think that's a joke, stop it right NOW!

I never liked people who gives empty promises.

And no,
I don't give
Empty
Promises

So how am i recently?? Fine. And way out of shape. Many things happened, including to those others who thinks that their life are in a sadistic misery. Everyone's having a bad day. Guess we're on the same boat huh??

I think i'm getting better but as someone ever said "放不下的往往是最痛的” fits my condition perfectly. Yes, princess of egypt, you're really right. I still can't get over the disappointment that i still can't let everything go, while the other one had already went through it, happier than each day... I'm frank with myself, yes, i still can't.

I agree with you Hannah Montana, that if one day i am able to delete all the texts from her then it means i can finally let go of her.... I really anticipated the coming of the day. Cause even now though i'm in a grave despair, she doesn't even care.... I hope and crave for the coming of the day.

The World and Everything in it changes fast
People's Heart changes too....
I'm Sick
So So Sick of it...

When She Loved Me.

"Nothing we can't make it through together"

Is there anything that we can't make it through together?? You use to tell me yes. As a matter of fact, you're the one who convince me that we can solve every problem, as long as we're together.

Now, has it become merely empty promise??

Is it a stupid joke somehow???


In fact, you're the one that makes me believe that i live in a fairy tale, that happy ending is everyone's ending. That as long as i be the good guy, we'll prosper in the end, like those prince and princess in their lovable stories. In the present, reality taught us a lesson, hitting me hard. Honestly, i keep on thinking what i've been lacking. What is it that lacks within me that you've decide to give up??

April Fool's day is coming really soon.... are you pulling prank on me?? Is everything so far a lame joke?? Will i get everything back on 1st of April??



It's really hard to see someone who cares for you change slowly to someone who doesn't even care. Hurts as much as dying as you became solemn and mean as reality slowly changes you. How?? more friends?? Less solitary life?? got bored for one who deeply cares for you though in a boring way?? change of heart??

You're no longer you. You've changed. And i am the one remaining the same, remaining as one who loves you.

Is this the cruelty of the world??? Have a feeling that fate and destiny played me. Am i the good guy getting the bad karma?? or the other way around?? Is there right or wrong in this?? Am i wrong?? Are you wrong?? Are we both wrong??




And the thing that saddens me the most is that it seemed so easy for you to let go, and yet i can hardly let go...



I'm still not ready to move on..........

Humour Me.

There's this saying that sounds "When you get something, you'll lose something." It's probably true i guess?? Does that mean getting excellent result for SPM but failing driving test analogous to the saying?? Never imagine i'll fail the driving exam though, something unexpected happened despite i did everything well....

Getting good result is a good thing??

I'm feeling numb for getting the result, is it because i've been giving myself an expectation so high that i'm not satisfied when i got this "Great result"?? Perhaps it's just human nature that we'll always look at those people who get better result than us no matter how GOOD RESULT we get.

And got rejected somemore, i mean, what the Hell if you can be blame for doing something Good?? WHAT THE FISH!!!! Sigh. Getting Good result + Failing Driving test + got rejected = Bad Day. Still it isn't something Good. sigh. Bad Day...

Anesthetic, Anyone??

Peculiar. Strange. It's something that everyone doesn't want to face, or even come to know about it. The last time. When it comes to people, we may often think. Is this the last of him?? Will we meet again?? Will our life clash again together?? Something for thought, we'll never know when our last time is. Maybe you've just fight with your mortal enemy, beware, this isn't the last of him/her. Maybe you are with your lover now, beware, this is maybe the last time you guys get together. I'm pretty disturbed by the fact that reality always pull tricks on people who thinks that they're controlling the situation. You think you might remain, but sadly, you might be the first one leaving. You got the sense of it??

What i want you to see is, the cruelty of this dejected world. Which time will be your last time??? I bet uncertainty bested all of us. Just like the song says, " Years make everything alright". Everything passes by as time passses. Nothing is last time, it's just merely the perception of human, the mentality of rendering a happening/experience as a different encounter unlike anything else.

Speaking of the last time, Tomorrow will be the last time form 5 secondary students of the previous year gather in our former school and receive our results, reaping what we sow the previous year. Will the outcome be good?? Many people doubt it, even the best among us whinned about his "birthday hex" that he's going to face the worst lucky of his life.

To tell everyone honestly, i'm afraid of my own result too, i fear that the result that i get is not up to my expectation, not sufficient for me to pursue my dream career : dentist. What if my result won't fit the criteria of becoming a dentist?? What if my result sucked like hell?? Currently worrying for someone too, wish her all the best for her result.

And no, all those "hey, you can do well.", "wow, I bet you're going to get straight As!!" comfort isn't really comforting. Dude, what if the reality prove otherwise?? Those who are not helping are really scattering.

Friends, now i value your encouragement above all else.
Love ones, now your prayer for me is all i want.

Blown Away.

Been to my church camp these days and come back empowered, more than ever. Thing happens in a way that it blows my mind away, I never thought i'll ever have an opportunity like this to go through everything like this.

By starting with the night-before-the-actual camp:


Kampua mee cooked by me. Pax : 10 person.


Though the noodles are finished, everyone seem hungry enough to crave for more and more and more noodles till the whole ricepot-full of noodles is gone. Anyway, the clean up process is excruciating.


My dear advisor, Why are you so lonely??


Erm.... (translation : PRESS ME, your little hands will be clean.)


Awestruck by the big-size of the banana.


A friend wear the same shirt as mine. Took a couple photo, unexpectedly the scratched lens blurred the face of her. She demanded another shot but then....


Mine was blurred this time....




Monkey see, monkey do.




Singing to the rain. Take note that there're rumours spreading around that the rain these days are full of radioactive particles.


Girls sure do a great artwork. =D Treasure of the camp.


Never thought there'll be people sleeping even soon after the camp ends.... What the Hell??

Finally, all camp members come to a point that everyone's life is changed. Big change. Honestly committees didn't expected a big impact like this. It's so beautiful. It's so wonderful. You can pray for things to change and it happen, it's a wonder. But if you pray for a life to change and it happens, it's a miracle. I was totally blown away by God's mighty power by witnessing this big change, which makes me furthermore resistant to what that will cause to stray away.

Lord, i thank you for answering my prayer that you change lives of our youth's member and bring them blessings they can never imagine. I pray that their life is constantly abundantly blessed by you and that they will not stray away from your Holy way. Thanks for bringing change to committees that we're in one heart and soul. We Thank you for your mighty power. Glory and Praises to you. In Jesus name i pray, Amen.