Nothing to look forward to. Nothing to hold on to. Nothing to be burdened for. Nothing to be sad for. Just endless and endless list of things to do, and to achieve in order to catch up with my life.
I wonder how life used to be; and how does the cool breeze feels in my hand. I am quite sure I've had miss out a lot on my life.
This much, I owe to myself.
There are more to life than this.
And often times I ask myself to see things differently, and perhaps life will be more of a pleasant view in my eyes. But why do I still feel weary as days go by?? All I feel like is that I've been bounded by many many things that I am obliged, though I am not obliged to do. The so-called " Things you should or shouldn't do". All the things that people can't wait to put on for you, as they are so quick on defining you, instead of take a careful look of your true colour.
Screw this stupid games of society
Screw this helll load of workload
Screw this boring life
Screw this
From now on my prayer will be that I will find life in the midst of this caged life
and i will find my way back home
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Somehow I cant help but toying with my thoughts in my mind.
The WHYs, the HOWs, and the every bits of reason behind those thought.
I just cant help.
The way I see it, we are so bounded by little strings we cant see, as we slowly grows.
And it becomes so attached that, sometimes we will not be used to it when we are finally being ourselves.
It's like we had created ourselves safe boundaries for us to tread in, and without knowing we caged ourselves right inside. And we thought all this is to provide more security to ourselves, but we feel bad. And pathetic is that, we dont even know whats wrong with us.
“I wondered what happened when you offered yourself to someone, and they opened you, only to discover you were not the gift they expected and they had to smile and nod and say thank you all the same.”— Jodi Picoult (via realizes)
And there are this game that you have to play when you grow up. That's when all the melodrama starts. And as much as you hate it and wish that you never have to play it, you have to, all the same with no exceptions.
It was like we are so busy with growing up,
We forgot that people used to come not only when they want to use you
We forgot that people used to see not your looks or your social status, only for who you are
We forgot that people can be so simple, you dont have to give extra thought to what they say and what they actually mean
We forgot that things are not as complicated, and we used to have less drama
We forgot that we are so energetic and carefree those days
We forgot that we are so happily living, we don't have to be wary of our deeds or words because no one really care.
If there is a time when I would regret growing up, it will be now.
It was like we are so busy with growing up,
We forgot that people used to come not only when they want to use you
We forgot that people used to see not your looks or your social status, only for who you are
We forgot that people can be so simple, you dont have to give extra thought to what they say and what they actually mean
We forgot that things are not as complicated, and we used to have less drama
We forgot that we are so energetic and carefree those days
We forgot that we are so happily living, we don't have to be wary of our deeds or words because no one really care.
If there is a time when I would regret growing up, it will be now.
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Pic of the day
Despite all these, I know there's life out there
Something more beautiful than all these
And its only up to how I see it
I am grateful
p.s. Figured out something again. Humans tend to replicate a particular environment or atmosphere because they want to relive the past memories that they are so fond of in their mind. But never do they know that things can be so different everytime, and that results in disappointment everytime when they didnt get the nostalgic feelings that they want to get, or got the outcome that they expect. But still they continued on everytime. Repeating the same all over again. Despite all these effort, they never know that, all they want is to relive those moment again. But no, now I know i doesnt work that way.
p.p.s But I am that stupid. I mean human nature are so complicated in a way that in a way it is pretty predictable. I will tend to do that also again, without fail.
p.p.p.s I think I am more energetic this time, as compared to the last post
p.p.p.p.s. Her name is Jun. Somehow I feel right this time round, but decided to not make a big fuss about it. So let's just KIV.
