Helo, Can anyone please cook us dinner??

TADA!!
钟恩绮,Don't know why I like to gek you so much
so
So
SO
much...
hmmm... The chocolate is very very nice... ahaha~
Especially the black one with the label "MArs"


MOm and Dad went to Bali and leave me, matt and eileen at home. Independent, parent-free life starts just then. Cook, tidy home, do clothes, bla bla bla... all by our own. At this time, the sense of stupid loneliness will kick in, bring the whole new emo period.

*slap*slap*slap*

Nope, i shouldn't let the condition affect me, I should be the one affecting the atmosphere.

*serious look*

I need to make my life cheerier..
Hmm...
let's listen to justinrobinnet 's music.


Anyway, I'm going to be in Bintulu for my choir camp starting tomorrow. So that means i can dump my sister at home and kiss my alone-at-home life with my bro!! YAY!

Guess i won't be around for sometime.

伤离别

今天，我失去了方向，
无处可往，只有沉溺在颓废的堕落当中，
感伤不尽，只有我晓得，
今天，不是
好
天


If time is a continuum, we cannot change anything about it. We can only live along with it, obeying this sickening cycle. Yes, we want to go back into the past. Yes, we want to turn the time back to Yesterday, when we can fix everything again, that heart-breaking things won't happen in our life. But the fact that we are hopeless is inevitable. Everything cannot go back to what it used to be anymore. We cannot turn back time. We're not God.

Our existence are merely trivial, we're only another soul living in the continuum of the sand of times.

Time past.
You changed.
I changed.
Everything changed,
despite how hard the fact that i'm not willing to accept it


Today is the day when someone is going to leave. Someone who used to play a big part of my life. Someone whom I value more than a friend. Someone whom I'm not going to mention anymore, but will never escapes my memory. If fate decide that i won't see her again, so be it.



"Hey, can I know what time is your flight on mon??"
"..."

"hey, can i know what's your flight time tomorrow??"
"..."

"One thirty pm tmr."
"Ooo... How's packing??"
"Done. I need to sleep now"
"Okay... Nites..."


P.S. Funny, but it's true. You're the only one who can drew out my tears, you never fail in doing it. In fact, you still are, even now.

Touching Heaven

We're Made To Worship
God made mankind with a natural ability to sought for ONE who created them, they're also born with the nature to worship the one made them. Try ask peoples with different religions, Buddhism, Christianity, Hinduism, you name it, they're all having the capability to seek for a higher power and to worship the creator. Even Lady Gaga acknowledge the presence of this creating authority in her song Born This Way. But she take this the wrong way (due to her twisted satanic mind D=), encouraging the homosexuals, gays, Lesbians to keep on living themselves because that's what God made them, which was against the nature's law.

Different?? Not So.
So, what's the difference between Christian worship and Non-christian worship?? People have different ideas, some suggested that Christians and non-Christians worshipped different Gods. Some think that christian worship more freely compare to other non-christianity religion, which are more strictly regulated. But there's actually nothing different generally, we're all worshipping our creator, which we believe in separately. Hindus believe in Brahma, Vishnu, and Shiva. Malays believe in Allah. Buddhist believe in a number of Gods and Goddess, and while Christians believed in THE ONLY GOD. So, its the same?? NOT SO.

Christians don't worship just because of God is their creator, they also worship because God responses during times of desperation


According to Mr. Michael William, if human worship God only because God is the creator, they might live in desperation because of all the tragedy happening around the globe, Tornado, Tsunami, Earthquake, El nino, La nina, etc etc. If this is so, humans might despair about "why is God letting this happening to His creations??" On the contrast, Christians do not just worship because God created them, but also God responded to them during times of desperation. When Christians worship, God presence is there at the very moment, God actually step into Christians' life and talks to them. Why does this happen?? Why is this very different from the non-Christians??

The Living God
God is a living God. It is well known by the well-known JESUS who died on the cross, taking the place of mankind and save them from the damnation in hell. Jesus later rise up again after 3 days in the grave. This is why God is still living among us until this very day. That's why they call to us, and that they answer to our desperate calls. He is the living God.

Mr Michael also include that God's sound is exactly like our voice, trying to talk to us and lead us on the right path (unlike the typical mentality that God's voice is suppose to be fatherly and deep). So how do we recognise God's voice?? First, we need to condition our minds to accept the word of God so that we can recognise which one is God's voice and which one is not. This can be done by reading bible, pray and most importantly WORSHIP.

Role of a Worship Leader
Mr Michael Emphasizes that Worship leaders' function is to direct the worshippers' attention to God instead of him/herself. Theoretically, Worship leaders are the projection of God that will lead the crowd into praising God, instead of focusing on the leader him/herself. So, worship leader need to made enough preparation in order to lead the worshippers into the worshipping God, and at the same time avoid doings that will snatch attention from God.


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JOshua.

你的笑容。无奈。杀了我。

HE have done it again.

In the midst of misery, comfort is just always around the corner. Maybe it's sweet as Bunny chocolate?? Haha, yes it does taste so.

This time, HE used someone with similar experience to reach me. So impulsive, i was blown away. Truthfully, i thanked that someone for sharing her very personal experience with me. And thanks psalms 42 for speaking for me.


Form 6.

It's a whole new level for us who freshly graduated from Form 5. New teaching methods, new friends, new groups, new teachers, new subjects. "New" seem to be the only word that fits the missing piece perfectly.

And for a "seasonal decoration" (as mentioned by Lawrence Law a.k.a kiluyer ), it's really tough, no joke. Even the teachers advice us against taking form 6 if we're offered other course. What to do??

Old pals, Seeing you guys are making me remembering the old days.....

People sees things differently. For you, maybe you're having peripheral vision; but for me, I'm Looking through fish eyes. So please, don't say you view things like me.

No, you don't understand me.
No, you can't understand me.
No, you'll never understand me.
No, you're in no place to be judgmental.
No, you don't have the right to say that i have to let go.
No, you don't exactly know what i've gone through.

And NO, I'm not okay.


Sleepless nights, night by night. COme O'Come...
Come torment my broken-up soul
For i am suppose to be gone
That my love has gone
into the Moonlight Capitol

How long was it?? MOnths??

看惯了阳光，开朗的我，
如果对你们敞开，
打开自己，
颓废，消沉，绝望的我，
你们能接受吗？？
你们会逃走吗？？
你们会了解吗？？

Desperadoes.

When you logged into this blog, try to be more inquisitive.
Be observant.

What's different??

Template's different?? No.
Wordings?? Nope.
Flavour of the texts?? Nada.

In case you haven't notice, There's music. =)

Hello World

Speaking of which,
I realized that I'm just one dumb guy living in this cruel world,
played by heart-breaking humanity trickery,
betrayed by promises,
denied by love,
and of course,
Out of love.

What?? Did Good girls extinct from this world already?? Or is it a sin for being serious in a relationship at this age?? Yes i know you don't, but i do.

well, everything is surely not going to be the same.
Maybe.



-Tip for the day : you can actually shut the auto-play music at the bottom of the bar on the right. The mixpod.

Angst

Take in a deep breath.
Breath in
Breath Out.

Here is the Place like No other.

I guess all the while I've been sinking in this stagnant period where the pace of my life is temporarily stopped, as the time continues to move on. When I realize that it's time to move on, sadness flood in like a gush of turbulent wave, crashing over me.

Now i know that I've been comforting myself with the fact that i'm still not moving, that i still don't have to move on.

But now, I have to pack up my emotions and physical self, and to leave the place and people where and whom I'm most familiar with. All I was left is to waiting for my due time, and when the time comes, i'll have to be gone.

Gone, like an apparition losing its silhouette.


Ah... My precious Drum set, how I am going to miss you and how sad that I'm unable to bring you to the place that I'm heading. I'll miss those old days when you and I enjoy each other's accompaniment and just purely have fun. For how long am i not going to see you?? Will you wait for me when I'm back?? Is it that I'm deeply in love with you, been passionate in all things about you??



He's just a bird. A baby Bird.
But he wants to fly away.
And now his wings had grew stronger.
He gained strength.
And he's going to fly like he had never flown before,
On a journey to a place that he've never been to before.
Adventure Awaits.


我能看见你，你能看到我吗？

Of all kind of feelings, hatred is the most peculiar one to me.

HOW CAN PEOPLE HATE?? And, WHY HATE??

I've never hate anyone before, because i believe that hating actually put our life into a deeper misery. I firmly believe that all things of this world, of all those Unlovable people, of all those unfavorable situations doesn't deserve to be hated. I mean, come on, Hate?? NO way.

To hate is to sin.

However, when hatred flood in, everything seemed to turn not logical. You can't think rationally and you're not who you're. When anger fills you, all you can think is just stupid stuffs, things that you'll regret thinking about. All in all, it's bitter and bad.

BUt, am i sinking in this Cardinal sin??
It feels so great, the surging energy of hatred. So as other hurtings that people gives you.
Am I starting to hate someone?? Someone that hurts me so deep??
Please don't, i need deliverance. I don't want to hate you.

BUt please, DON'T MAKE ME HATE YOU




It's a season mid in summer
And i miss you more than ever

Metamorph.

Hai, My Name is Joshua Wong

See, that's what happen when a form 5 life metamorph into a form 6 life form.

After attending the form 6 orientation, being introduced to all kind of streams and science fields, i finally being placed in the Lower Science 6 class. The only pure bio class. My heart dropped when we have to face the gruesome fact that the original Five Science one of year 2010 is splitting. I guess the scene where we gather around and crap and chat will not likely to happen in the distant future, going to miss those times lots and lots.

Coming to think of it, we have to come to the fact that breaking away is inevitable. Only separation will remind us of the value of friendship when everyone are far apart.


Seriously tell me,
What's wrong?? What's wrong??
I tried to be happy when i talk to you
To show that I can live on as well without you
But i regret the pretense
I regret it
YOU Win

Pain à l'ail, bon appétit!

L'amour de Joshua

From Damai With love.

Preparing to leave.

...

... ...

... ... ...

And here we are.


Sea.
Hilltops.
Sunshine.
Coconut trees.
No sign of stress eh??
NIce~



One lame thing, it's what you'll have to face if you're living on the hill. You'll need transportation.


Toilet ft toiletries. XD


Erm... should this pic be here?? XD
forget it...


A place to hatch lingering thoughts.


Erm... how can Mr coconut be left out when it comes to beach?? LOL


D.I.Y forms. (Well done Dianne a.k.a camp leader, Crazie ryl, Xian, and Wendy.)


Pillow talk.
say what you're gonna say
we hear it
we heed it
speak it out
no hiding
no scrambling secrecy
lest problem will not be solved


Somethings wrong with the TVieeeee....


Pawn To the right!




Enchanted Paradise




















And we go down to the beach, from hilltop down.



Ermmm, somethings wrong here... (notice the sign board)
BUt so as nothing turns out wrong. =D

Ooops


Was it just me or this look like a modeling picture?? (featuring Cheryl and Grace)

Of course, watching sunrise is so much fun, after what we did through the night, talking to owls and not sleeping.





FOOD!!!




For one time i wish i would not have to do this from time to time. It brings back memories which i want to forget, that i want lock up in my mind but feels heavy to do so.





Solitary mimbletonia
How I wish everything about you can be washed away by the rolling waves
Leaving no trail behind
Without a trace.



Something I would not want to face even until today
That everything is different from now on
That I cannot make any amends
That I can no longer turn back time
You're gone
A solitary Me remained
when i took a peek under the sunlight
I can only see my shadow.