Nothing much. Really.
After all that happening, my mind
still couldn’t register to the fact that I’ve really changed a lot.
So yea, nothing much happened.
Really.
…
The Secret Life of Walter Mitty sure
is one of the highlight of my life, considering the fact that I’ve been to the
theater to watch it twice. I really needa say that, Ben Stiller had really done
a great great job in producing such a moving movie, and it totally pictured my
definition to life.
“To see the world, things dangerous
to come to, to see behind walls, draw closer, to find each other and to feel.
That, is the purpose of Life”
I find myself barely able to add
furthermore into this statement. This completely just sums up everything for
me. And I am completely awed with the little journey that Walter Mitty took and
see that his life completely changed. I want to be like that too, to travel, to
have a purpose to work hard for, and have a good company to fight with/for, and
ultimately, finding that stream of joy coursing within me, even when the
world starts to fall apart.
That’s life, and I cannot ask for
more than that.
…
A month passed in the new year and I
evaluated myself, and the promises that I’ve made to myself at the start of
2014; To live life out loud, and hoping all that I am is always enough for
everyone.
But the truth is, no one can ever be
enough for everyone, in fact no one can ever be enough for us (In a sense maybe
I am the one who thinks so). And it is only unlikely that the perfect world
residing within the sheath of my imagination can only stays in my head, not
being able to play out in the reality.
I mean, no matter how hard I try, no
matter how hard I Improved, there are still people who would deem me as
unworthy to share his/her friendship, or at least be convinced that the
friendship that I offer can only be pure.
I still sometimes disappoint people, even those whom I’ve given my all
to in order to prove my worth. I still
become that reason to be sad for. I still am that person who hurts when he
tries to hold on tighter.
And it was then I realize that I DON’T
HAVE TO PLEASE EVERYONE.
And it was then I decided that I should
live my life and be myself.
And it was then I know that I maybe
right, or I might be wrong.
Thing is, am I really ready to lose
all those relationships in the process of sieving out those who can really
accept and cherish us for who we are? Am I really committed to be myself and no
one else? Am I fully aware of the repercussions of my act and am willing to
accept it?
I don’t think I will ever know the
answer to that.
And here I was thinking that there
will be a day when everyone will be getting along just perfectly fine
regardless of all the differences. But now I know. The day will never ever
come. Call this my rebellion against everything that I’ve been rooting for, but I have
to challenge my faith in order to know that it is really true.
Or I will die trying.
...
To be ever Patient
Ever Loving
and ever Faithful
I am trying
And it ain't easy
