A note for the thief




Dear Uncle,

I dont know you, and you dont know me. The moment that we shared, its only a fraction of seconds; but enough to leave a lasting memory in my mind.

I saw you coming, but never did it cross my mind that you would be the one who will take my phone away from me. Never have I thought of you as someone who would commit such an ugly act. I only see you as some random chinese uncle in ragged cloth, on a red bike on his way to start his day.

I only see you as an ordinary person, though one struggling with life, in your own way.
But you disappointed me.
You destroyed my hopes in humanity, you shattered my faith in any ordinary stranger.

I guess I can only sum it up as a lesson in life, and you are the teacher.

I remember your face. I remember the clothes you are in. I remember the colour of your motorcycle. I remember you are wearing a white helmet, and I remember how you made me feel.


...

The only comfort I can find is that maybe you are just a very poor person who needed some cash to get through the chinese new year. Maybe you needed that extra cash to buy that one pants which will put a smile on your son's face. Or maybe it is all you needed to pay off your long-overdue rent that you need to resolve else you and your whole family will be chased out in this festive season. Or maybe, you needed the cash to pay for a debt for someone you cared deeply about.

Maybe you need the money more than me.
Maybe God has his way of blessing others through these kind of tragedy.
These are all I can think about to keep myself calm, and perhaps resign to my fate.

Then I remembered, the look on your face.
It's cold. It's hard. It's like I am staring at a wall.
Maybe its your first rodeo, but your face told me so much more.
I can't see any remorse on your face.
Maybe, you are used to do this. Maybe, this is your way of life.

...

Ever since that day I keep wondering what are you doing with my phone.

Would you be finally bringing a warm meal to the table for your family, making this the happiest CNY ever for your family, a sweet memory for your wife and kids.

Or, would your blood be drown in alcohol, as you abuses your wife and kids just because you lost all your money from another round of gambling?

Owh God please let it be the first one.

...

I am sorry.
Maybe the world had treated you harshly.
That's why you ended up where you are.
And that's why you needed to take something from me

I am sorry the world hasnt been fair for you,
but it doesn't justify what you do.
what you took away from me in a split second,
costs me a few months to recover,
and not to mention the memories, that wont come back forever.

So I hope it's worth it.
I believe in Karma,
and I believe in life after death.

I really hope for your sake that what you've done is worth it.







Once in a while I would drop in to check on everything




The funny thing is, everytime when I dont have the time or energy to blog, I would find myself full of thoughts and inspiration to pour out into this place; but when I do really have the time and energy to blog, I am lost of words. All the thoughts and emotions just faded, no where to be found. Guess that's life (?)

Okay. slight updates.

I am now back from India, and currently working on my side jobs as a dentist's assistant while bidding my time, waiting it out to be posted in the government clinic, where I am supposed to be working.

Why not just work as a dentist, since you are already one? you may ask.

This has something to do with  Malaysian law that everyone graduated in the medical should be put under compulsory service with the government for at least a year before exiting the government and started working in private sector. With the oversaturation of medical personnel in Malaysia, with thousands of graduates still unemployed, I guess the day would come sometime later, not really soon.

There you go, I am in a stupid state of waiting again. My life put on hold, not able to advance into the next phase of my life.

Why not just put everything down and enjoy your life? you may ask. Go travel, do something you love, or something.



I would really love to travel. Somewhere far and foreign, I would like to see the world.
but where does the money come from? yeap you got it right, I need to work, and hence explains why am I working now.

So do I love my life and job right now? you may ask.

HELL NO. My life is stupid now. ( more on that next time )



Just a little update. Hope everyone is doing fine here.
till next time



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