And in this glamorous City of Shanghai,
there are also poor people
sad people
people who have no idea where to get their next meal
people who are angry
people who are evil
people who are down a dark path.
I believe, there's a dark side to everything.
I am not quite sure how do I articulate on this matter.
Because recently I am struck pretty hard by an ugly side of someone dear to me.
Like how can someone who wish to inspire respect from others, commit hideous acts?
How wrong we are to think that, people that we know are who they seem on the surface.
Many times we made the same mistake, and in the end got hurt by the unfounded expectation we have for someone.
Sure there are good people in this world, I am not going to deny that.
But I guess its pretty safe to say that, everyone is struggling with something in their daily life.
I am going to borrow from the Catholic's Seven Deadly Sin:
Look around us, everyone seem to be fine.
But there are people secretly can't have enough of "nice" food out there , never know how to say stop to themselves (Gluttony)
There are people who in their twisted ways, imagine what they are going to do to the next girl/guy what they had done with many others that they have sexually coveted. (Lust)
There are people who struggle with giving themselves more good things in the world, is it ever going to be enough, they dn really know. NO, scratch that. They dont think they have enough, ever (Greed)
There are people who are angry with what others have without a shred of gratefulness for the things that they themselves own. They are so not chill when people have what they dont have (Envy)
There are people who needs to feed their ego every now and then. It can be in forms of submission from others; it can be something great that need to be achieved; it can be something that they they shouldnt ever do, it can be as small as a "like" on a facebook/instagram post. (Pride)
There are people who are just angry. Always angry. Why you ask me. I dont know, perhaps maybe they are not contented with how the things are in this world. There are also people who failed at keeping their emotions in check, always do or say things in the wisp of the moment that brought irreparable damage. (Wrath)
There are people who just dont care, hell, they dn even care about themselves. They just want the world to pass them by and do nothing (Sloth)
Yea, its ugly I know.
We are ugly people.
I believe deep down inside, we are all ugly.
Had you come to terms with your sin?
What is your sin?
I know there are plenty of FUCKING ugly ( in terms of heart ) people in the church.
I've seen and known some of them in my life.
First hand experience.
I am sorry, I have nothing against churches. I am a devout Christian myself.
But I would like to come out of my way and make a stand that:
1. No one is perfect
2. Church is not the place for you to come to look for saints.
The truth is, again I can't say enough, is that there're a lot of evil in this world, in the most holiest of places in this world, in the purest of the people. There's always something dirty under that squeaky clean doormat, always a rotten skeleton in one's closet.
And I cant stress enough that I am deeply disappointed by how well these people thrive, just because they hide their dark side better, and make a better performance than the rest. Like, people will buy the idea that someone perfect and good exists.
And it all bound to crash and burn when that fake idea is exposed, realized.
PEOPLE ARE EVIL, MAN.
LOOK AT ME, I AM EVIL.
LOOK AT US
We are just a bunch of sinful cracks trying to convince others how good we are, while deep down, we know we are just hopelessly filthy.
The realization that your role model is not as good as you think can be destructive.
Look at me now. Losing faith in humanity once again.
Going down the dark path in the mind
Just because of something someone did.
Tell me, what should one do upon the knowledge that there aren't one saint left in this world.
How can we love people around us?
How can we be good ourselves?
I guess it goes without saying, and without a doubt that we all need JESUS. I am just going to end my argument and let you decide:
If you are holier than the Gods,
If you can find everlasting peace on your own
Or if you need a Fatherly hand that guides you on your rocky road to find heaven.
Something interesting to note:
1. People always change
2. In time, a person can be an entirely new person
3. But soon you realize that some old habits/traits die hard
4. So which one is true?
a. The only unchanging truth is that everybody changes
b. The only unchanging truth is that people will never change
5. Can a person change to be better, or worse?
6. Or it is already destined, ingrained in their DNA, something that is meant to be?
Okay, I am out of things to say, Just gonna show you guys how pretty China is:
Life Sucks.
Sometimes I can understand why people chose to take their own life.
They simply dont want to have anything to do with this world.
p.s. I am not suicidal
Still Hanging On,
Joshua
