If I die Young

If I die Young

Let everyone take whatever they want from me,
It will be free
I want to give away my organs
I want everyone to know that I've tried my best to be the best a person can be

I want a tombstone that says,

Here lies the guy who lived a good life,
Blessed with all the goods in the world,
But lost his faith in humanity.

Life's tough
But the place that I will go, I will be enough.

Weakness

Do you have that feeling when you have been doing something for a very long time and one day it snapped.

You cant find anymore meaning in doing the same thing again and again.

Whats the purpose of making the same choice to continue, to fight on anyways?

...

Perhaps its mistake to show your weakness.

I thought at first, that having weakness is a proof that you are a human

But no one, absolutely no one can handle you at your darkest, wildest rebellious self, at least not unconditionally.

and worst are those who rub salt on your wound when you open up to you.

And I was deeply humiliated, that I believed in humanity. That you of all people can provide a comfort or some sorts to my daylight nightmare. I've made a mistake, and I deeply disappointed in myself

And I vow to never make the same mistake again.

...

Such incoherent writing, right?

Just goes to show what a mess I am in right now.

Looking forward to better days.