Favoritism Indulgence

He drew in a breath and out, barely noticing that his chest is heaving heavily from breath to breath. It was kinda heavy, wasn't it?? After the accident of knocking into the edge of a table in the chest one month ago, things haven't been really fully recovered. He wondered, what actually hindered the recovery?? He wondered.

Some random thought strike into his mind again, is that really true that his english vocabulary is somehow too bombastic??

He guessed no, and he again wondered why people are saying that, over and over again. Out of pure admiration?? or just mere sarcasm?? He guess no one knows that he owns a blog for four years, which became a place that provide him space of improvement.

And by the way, he Thought, how am i going to get back to KTT ?? =S

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God works in mysterious way, so strange that we will never know when He works, and we'll never know if something that happened is his work. Weird infact, it's a mystery that we'll never uncover for the rest of our life.

Last week someone accepted Christ after some long time of consideration. She was someone whom we least expect to be a christian, but finally without us knowing, made the sinner prayer. We never expect that to happen, which explains God's wonder.

Thanks to a particular senior who didn't give up on her.

Thanks to a particular senior who work hard in reaching out to her.

And thank God for saving her.

Glory be to God.

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有时候有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流~143~

Withdrawal Syndrome

With the coming of the holiday I moved and stayed in with my uncle, in some sense its called "rotting", when i have nothing to do except for facing fluorescent screens and dull pages of biology and maths.

Oh ya, i lived in apartment that looked like this. Back in kuching i only manage to see people of poverty living in this kind of apartment while i myself live in a Semi-D. Now, in Kuala Lumpur, where everything is expensive, food and drinks alike, and especially accomodation, living in a house where you can step on solid ground each morning is a seemingky impossible task.

Guess how much does this kind of accomodation cost per unit??

3 guesses and i bet you're still wrong.

The answer is : 200 k++

Conclusion : I guess KL is pretty over populated which causes high demand on living quarters. Seriously, how are we going to make a living when we first step into the society??

Anyway, getting to know about the KL lifestyle :

1. wake late, usually around 9 - 10 something.
2. breakfast, then off to work
3. back to home after work and have dinner.
4. watch TV at home or went window shopping
5. supper at 12am and read night papers.

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And as the post suggests, i'm now suffering from withdrawal syndrome.

I'm not used to the feeling when i woke up and realize that i was living in a closed quarter with another two guys instead of nine noisy ppl who always cause chaos in the TK29.

I'm not used to eating fancy food from kopitiam.

I very much prefer use to food prepared by Indian of ktt, or Ayahanda, or Mak Cik Mirah.

I'm not used to lepak in Gigantic shopping malls.

I miss the times when i stood in the minimart @ the abandoned shoplot and also Alamanda

Specially dedicating this to Jonathan Jong, Lim Ji Hui, Fan Kar Joon, Sean Lai, Lim Cheng Yi, Chong Hao Phin, Ray Edward, and Armand Kenneth.

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多么向往到外国旅行的那一天

异国风情就是那么的迷人

一切都是那么的陌生

但优雅，奇特，

在街上走着走着

我会偶尔按一按快门

把我说看到的透过镜头捕捉下来

我觉得摄影学就是把一个地方的美呈现出来的技巧，

所以我喜欢拍照片

希望以后在异国旅行时多一个你，

我可以让你站在我的镜头里

共同制造美好的回忆

威尼斯

我们一起期待

A Country Path in Late Spring

The path of mossy ground nestled
In between maternal hedgerows,
That overgrew atop, dimming down
The brilliance of the day.
Embosomed, a calm-cool vision –
Abstract takes of nature, in
Leaf-spattered green shades;
Stem-speckled brown hues;
Shards of sunlight percolating
Through the random flaws to
Up glittering sprites upon the leaves.

And avian chatter bounced along the burrow,
Smattered by the crosstalk
Of busybody insects;
But outside the green comfort zone,
Other worlds of other sounds of other life
Otherwise gave a hint of
Other dozy goings on.

Hawthorn filled the air,
Filled the nose,
Filled the head –
Pungency had overpowered all –
Gave the late-spring-early-summer haze.

Here and there a break of colour:
Odd bluebells – escapees from nearby woods –
Blue-blushing bell faces glancing down,
Aware of their erectness in the stem;
The flaming wing of red admirals
Broke through a hedge hole to
Break up the calm backdrop,
While flitting blue tits gave
To greater-bodied animation.

Nature’s warm narration –
The undertones of life.

Mark R. Slaughter

有感而发

华文学会选举终于结束了。



看着新任主席难为情地回答着主席的 “你觉得你适合当主席吗？？” 问题，

心里是一阵喜乐？？
还是一时失落？？

真的是有点乱了.....

是不是为当不到主席而失落些些？？

或许有点吧。

当时真的有点不够老实。

有一点点点点点的不甘,

一小部分的不甘心。

但是我已经很满足了 =)

因为我太了解自己了

贪玩

这样的一大责任将要我牺牲多少玩乐，与朋友，家人 ,和爱人 ( !!! ) 在一起的时间？？

我其实很甘心了

我的祷告被聆听了...

"Congratulation, you're now the representative of CF (christian fellowship) in CCES (chinese cultural education society)"

学长说的这一句话，我不会忘记

真奇妙

阿爸还可以透过这样的一件事，透过我这样的一个人改变这个学院。

还记得自我介绍时说过的几句老实话 ：

“大家好，我是黄旭，Joshua Wong, ALL 12, 为人坦率，没有什么长处，真的是没有一个顶尖的长处。我觉得华文学会真的是一个很好的地方，把我们华人都聚在一起。我有时候觉得很好笑，为什么有些人宁愿呆在家死命背书，也不要来华文学会与大家来聚一聚。说真的，华文学会就是大家彼此的肩膀，在外地求学的一个依靠。至于做不做委员，我觉得做不做委员都可以为华文学会服务。没有什么委员部委员的。”

真的，

做了委员，

到最后因为读书不来聚会了，

岂不是比那些活跃的契友更不好？？

我觉得，身为一个领导者, 我们根本没有什么资格评价自己的领导能力，领导能力是别人说给的评价。

对，这次当上了副主席，真有够忙的了....

Shrei

Things get pretty uneventful when you're used to a new place, especially when all the fun things start to fade away.

Was it because the new environment changes into something that's not so up-to-expectation??

Or was it because that anticipation is dying??

disputable.

Try think, you're standing there, everything lies infront of your eye. Same old thing. The same monotony, the same thing, all the same. You started to Wonder. Why is this intriguing when i first come?? Why are all this stuff interesting and fun to enjoy at first and slowly lost its flavour??

Your fake smile crooked.

Your fist clenched.

You just realized that you're lost your pokerface.

You've just realized that you're very naked and invulnerable.

Frankly speaking, college is really a place full of genius ppl. All sorts of weird dude and dudes.

I am now exposed to all kind of people, kinds that i've never seen before. Kinds that i've never encountered with before.

I wonder, is these people the product this suffocating, bustling city life??

Is the society putting too much stress on normal people, and in the end render them abnormal??

Disputable.

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Anyway, holiday is coming soon. =) *happy*

I guess i'll stay at home, do some studies and plant some mushrooms (if you get the joke) and at the same time do some thing that actually contributes to this world, not to me alone.

I'm given a week. To things on my own, and to prove that i have genuine time management ability.

People ask me why ain't i going home back in kuching??

I tell them that my dad told me not to go back cause the air fare is too expensive.

As a matter if fact, this is very true. (Someone goes back with air ticket worth RM600, which is lot more compare to a month of allowance given by the goverment!!!)

Hola, Kuala Lumpur!!

Joshua is going to seek sanctuary in you this holiday!!!!

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir and Batin.

p.s. Why do we need to remove the battery cell if we were to use it for long term and through A.C. current?? are we going to spoil it??

p.p.s. Right..... This is the true spoon guy not me!!! I AM NOT THE SPOON GUY!!!

p.p.p.s. When is the goverment giving me money???!!!! I'm going to enter the state of property soon...

p.p.p.p.s. Why is horror stories so interesting?? What potential does it have which let a bunch of guys consist of 5 nerds to indulge in it?? Tell me why!!??

p.p.p.p.p.s. Can i have you in my dream tonight. please??

Vicarius Fili Dei

Recently i had a meaningful conversation with some newly-met friend.

How does people get their egoism from??

From my point of view, it's forms when someone lives in the environment where he never had a chance to taste the feeling of losing. That's ego.

"Don't worry, it's good that you realized it, at least you have a chance to change. At least you'll know what you're lacking and you'll work for a change."

And another friend said.

"How does the Extra Terrestrial Life form forms?? I believe that the world had undergone many times of the "End of The World". Each time, a small part of the human manage to find away to escape to the outer space using unknown technology and continue their life in the outer planet. There, they adapt to the environment and undergone physical change. There it goes, voila, aliens in our understandings."

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Now i finally learn to put faith in God into practice.

God said if we put God as the top priority in our life, every other aspect of life will slowly fall into places, relationship with other people, academics, career, social life.... eccetera eccetera..

So, have faith.

Give God a chance. Let Him transform your life into something awesome.

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以前的我真的是太蠢了，

太纯了

太蠢了

现在，

一切回不到从前，

不可能了，

希望你非常清楚以前

你所做的

决定

因为是你先放弃的

至少我低声下气挽留过你

现在，

我很快乐。

Famine 30 Hour

A Very Good Morning to All!!!

We have Famine 30 hour here!!!!

Camp Leader

Group photo session

Throughout the camp we're to abstain from all kinds of solid foods, provided only with a litre of soya juice....

Problem : How to differentiate between each other's soya juice??

Method : this is not your soya!!

GAMES!!!

Building your own house in the developing country!!

Sleep time.....

Childhood memories...

Drama

Final countdown @ Bukit Jalil

random

Welcome into Existence

Everything is fine here.

Having the chance to study pre-university programme under the government sponsorship, having class five days per week, play one day per week. Everything is just fine. =)

Exciting events come one after another, now I’ve just complete the 30 hour famine event, in which I’ll blog about in a distant future. Talking about blogging, I think my English writing skill somehow deteriorates and now I can’t blog catchy, bombastic English in my blogspot. *sigh* The end of my blogging career??

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Questions are not meant to kept anymore..

I wanna know, is anyone going to be any better by condemning other people?? I know there are times when the so called accused guy is wrong, but then is it really right by condemning?? What’s the rationale of it??

A paradoxical explanation perhaps, that you can actually correct other people by condemning him, but at the same time hurting that particular someone, striking phobia into the poor dude, and at the same time destroys the new-bonded relationship that had just formed. Is it worth it?? Destroying the friendship just to correct some mistakes or incorrect attitudes??

Somehow I hate the condemning look I get.

I know I did something wrong. But I’ve tried my best so that what I’ve done is of everyone’s best interest. Your act of condemning is giving me the feeling that you're trying to raise yourself higher.

I prefer the patient treatment one of my senior is giving. Thanks Band 9. =)

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又是那张脸孔

又是那种笑容

又是那种气质

为什么

为什么

为什么

A picture Speaks a thousand words