Live Life. Love Life. Embrace Life.: January 2013

Being Lucid

Now that I have a Tumblr account, I find it really easy and achingly relieving to always finding some nice picture that suits me to put up on the blog. So reader, GOOD NEWS!! be prepared for more mind-blowing pictures, or you can just join tumblr, and FOLLOW. ME. NOW.

I don't know why, and i wonder why, that I frequently have random dreams at night, while I was a dreamless person back then. I do hope i have an explanation by checking out the mechanism of having a dream, but sadly I've been too busy working, as I got a new well-paid job. B)

Ah ya, it's a selling-package-for-some-telco job. Very well paid indeed, but sadly it's only for short term and i'll be released from my duty soon. =)

Anyways, back to the dream.

Dreams.
I dreamt about random person that walked through my life, some random place, that i've been to and not. I dreamt about Sabah and climbing to the top of the statue of liberty (WTF?? using rattan?). And i dreamt about shouting so loud in the dream to some obese, that i have sore throat the next morn.

I pretty much hated the fact that it disturbed my sleep. But i wonder, what's the meaning of all this??

Experience life through dreamy world?
Maybe there's something in me that crave to do something that my heart won't allows. Screaming in the dreams?
Maybe another soul in me is reaching out, seeking for another way of life.

Feeling pretty personality-splitted now.

...

This is very very true.
Many years down the road, when you will look back.

You'll see only those times when you really felt genuine.
When you are really doing something with objectivity.
When you can sacrifice anything just for something
When the world is a better and warmer place.

Not the person you were with, because they changes,
and no longer fits the angels in the picture.

Not the person you were known to, because they've move on,
and whatever that you feel for them back then is just irrelevant now.

Not the person you were clinging on to, because most probably you have moved on too,
and many years down the road, you've learnt to release your grip, slowly letting go.

Is it better this way??
When I stare into you again, maybe I can't find the light in your eyes anymore.
neither my eyes will be sparkling anymore.
Maybe you won't care, and maybe you don't give a damn.

But if you do,
I'm sorry to say that we've both changed.
and this is a road not taken.

...

Bye January,

You shall not be missed.

P.U.S.H

Tumbling

Jack and Jill

Went up the hill

To fetch a pail of water

Jack fell down and broke his crown

And Jill came tumbling after

So what's the point with the tumbling song?? Well, behold my readers. =)

I now have a Tumblr account. =)

Do feel free to drop by and have a look, and fear not my blogspot will still be up and running. =)

Goodbye. and Hello again.

Life is full of Goodbyes, and new hellos trailing behind.

Finally after one full month of working @ secret recipe, I ~~released myself~~ have been released from the duty as a floor staff.

Honestly I can say that I have a very good working experience, the staffs there are really friendly and nice, and there aren't many customers around, so basically I can just earn money just by sitting, some of the time.

They are really simple people, with simple needs, and with simple things that make their Life colourful.

1000+ salary per month
Free Meals in the outlet, which consists of only eggs, minced chicken, and cabbage.
Play around when there aren't any customers
Own Music during closing
And one off day per week

Everything is simple when life is just simple
You tend to trust people easily
And you are happy easily
Why can't everything just stay that way??

Thank you, for all of you will be remembered.

~~Except for one, who serves my life with misery and forced me to opt out.~~

Bye

...

And of course, Hello.

receiving my A level results is kinda nerve-gnawing for me.

Never thought such a slip of paper will make me so anxious.

Anyways, I thank God for my result which looks like this :

Physics A
Biology A
Mathematics A
Chemistry A*

Well, the A* is kinda unexpected though, I just "ter-" only. =)

So, my golden ticket to fly to India is secured, and my job as a future dentist is pretty much decided. Never thought my life will be settled this easily like this. Happy or sad?? Both. I could have done more and try more and explore more, but it will be easier kept this way.

So yea, that's all for now.

The Truth

Specially dedicated to all who wish to understand more about me. Who wish to delve deeper together with me, into this muddle of mess, entangled with fury.

COMPARISON

Comparison happens a lot around us. For my case, it happened too frequent that i think it's not normal for me to do that. I compared everything, most of the time just silently, even without me myself noticing. My mind just naturally make comparison and rouse my heart, to make me either feel proud or frustrated deep within.

Or is it happening to everyone else?
People always say that by comparing less we can lead a happier life.
But the sad case is, how can a heart listens when there's so much difference in the world??

Well, the truth is

I know it's unfair
when I compare you with other people that I used to have
when I compare other people who are in the same situation with you
when I compare your friends with me
when I compare you with me

I just know.
But I can't help it.

~~I should have been more understanding enough, but I have enough tolerating~~

If you really care, please teach me.
and tell me "it's okay, I understand"

and that'll be enough for me to be eternally grateful.

P.U.S.H

With Love from Sabah.

Sabah is know as the Land Below the Wind, a phrase used by seafarers in the past to describe lands south to the typhoon belt. So We, a gang of 21 paid there a visit.

The swordfish monument at night

Well this is not something of significance (not that i know of), but it;s interesting to see such structure. A pipe clock tower

Our Host, who most of the time be our photographer.

Here she is (right in the middle), with us on Klias River Cruise.

Our tour Guide, Ah Lip

So In Klias you are expected to see proboscis monkeys, which basically looks like a man with Long long nose. That's why they earned the name "Orang Belanda" among the locals.

Proboscis monkey

Sunset

Meet the lizard!!

A bonus for the trip

We are also fascinated by the tarap fruit which can be only found in Sabah. A fruit look like Nangka, but has small fruits which sticks on a core. The fruit has less strong smell compare to cempedak or nangka but has the same taste.

Isit Allopatric speciation, we wondered.
It's Hilarious a bit when we seem to relate everything around us using stuffs we learn during A level course. Amazing. =)

Let's see what Mr Sean does with the core of the Tarap fruit....

Introducing Emcee Lai, the host for the travelling channel programme!!!

The statue of.... Sabah?? O.o

And we've met perhaps the biggest horseshoe crab in our life.
Turns out to be one of the most frightening experience for me, as my feet softens at the sight of him.
In the end, sadly i didn't get to take a pic with it.