Death Silence

Breath in
Breath out
A moment to think
A lapse second of ponder
A dwindling thought
Fading away in and out


A dark drape envelop over the sky
Shining celestials bring glimpse of hope
Only to be swept away the next moment
Into nothingness
Into sorority
Into the world of anger, betrayal, and intriguing dark emotions

Cricket croons no sound
As if silenced by the absence of the wind
Dead silence echoes
Lost hearts pounding
Banging away in the mad world

Phantom of Beauty dreams
Shattered
Destroyed
Vanquished
Relinquished
What’s left??
Please
Abandon all hope

He tears
He cries
He howls into the tired night
Gone
Begone
Hearts shattered into pieces once more.

Supposedly

As time passed I realized that I’ve changed again, in the process of redefining myself. I got kinda emotional at times, and most of the time I did a lot of thinking, though most of the time I was putting up a jolly face in front of everybody else. At times I realize that thinking about how people reacting to stuffs, having a certain mentality, or trying to figure why people react to certain circumstances is better than wasting time crapping about shallow stuffs.

At the same time, with all these special people around in the college, I manage to get along with lots of unique but weird but awesome but sometimes distressing people and manage to get a better look of life through their point of view. Why, I always ask myself, are they having such a thought/personality??

Maybe deep down in their heart they have this secret that is buried that no one will ever know.

Maybe it’s this secret that altered the natural personality that I used to see in everyone else in primary school or early secondary years.

Maybe I know all this because I’m like them too.

Maybe deep down in my heart there are secrets that no one will ever know.

From time to time I will doubt people intentions and desperately crying out for their most truthful side of them. I mean, why does a certain people do this??

 People says “Oh, it’s because he’s doing this just because of this particular reason”. Okay, sounds fair enough. But why am I doubting that simple excuse reason and believe that there’s something deeper within?? Will further analyzing do me any good?? Or will it just prove to me solely that human nature are as ugly as it is not supposed to be??

Maybe this are the things that makes people to start to get complicated. And maybe that’s why people are getting more and more weird as they grew.

It’s sorta like a redefinition perhaps??

Little things in life

If any little word of ours

Can make one life the brighter,

If any little song of ours

Can make one heart the lighter.

God help us speak that little word,

And take our bit of singing

And drop it in some lonely vale,

And set the echoes ringing

Medieval Vallay

Erkhem... A quick Update.

*drum roll*

Ladies and gentlemen, behold the awesome post that you're not gonna see twice in your life....

*TADA!*

Outing to Midvalley Megamall @KL

 

Mickey Jigsaw Puzzle

 

And then we arrived at this shop where there's this dark room where all the jigsaw puzzles will glow in the dark, even JJ's white shirt glows (actually the ultraviolet light will do the trick).

Then we're so excited and got so crazy that we start to snapshot around in the room, ending up being scolded by the shop attendant, twice for the same reason : taking pics in the shop. But i mean, what's wrong if we're actually advertising for you?? We're too young to be your competitors who would want to steal your ideas... = = Great. Now you've earn your bad name.

Then we had our Lunch. PORK BURGER. It's really amazing that pork had become a very special thing in this pork-less place. Great taste anyway, with some fairly disheartening price..

Noticed something??? Jon striked nothing seven times in a roll. XD

 

Guess which one is me??

Another surprise for the day : met a couple professional models taking pics along the way. And all of them was like, 10-20 cm taller than me?? *gasp*

And yet another surprise, we went into this chili's grill and got sliced and diced by the expensive dishes we had there.. And the service is pretty awesome and "professional" too.. In the end we only managed to share the tacho chips among four of us... = =

And here comes the end of the post. Hope you enjoy..

*curtain closes*

Outta Quota

It is really frustrating when some wireless broadband service that you're using turned your back against you. And in the end i have to end up in the College resource centre a.k.a library so that i can blog and manage my sosial websites. Hmm... let's see, from what i remember the broadband service provided the following terms :

1. Fair Internet speed up to 512 kbps. (which is kinda good for me as a student who doens't have any special need such as watching porn, video streaming, gaming, and yada-yada stuffs that you can do on the net that requires superb internet speed)
2. Data Quota up to 1 GB. (Well... I wonder how much is that since i have no understanding on how do we use the data up... But it sounds really awesome cause from what i've learn from physics Gigabyte = 10-to-the-power-of-9 bytes.)
3. Reduction of 50% internet speed in case of over-quota usage (ever wonder why i highlighted the 50 % part?? You'll soon know. =3 )

Sounds pretty good right?? Well i could only say that things promised when people sell you stuffs/service are totally different from what they first promise. This is what they call MARKETING STRATEGY. Ya, you heard it and i'll say it again. MARKETING STRATEGY.

So the story starts when i first use my broadband and naturally it's kinda OKAY. Then upon entering the third month of the usage of that particular broadband service i found out that my quota had been used up at the early start of the month. ( DX, i never know why i used it up so fast, maybe is it because i indulged in onlining during the Holiday??) And so, i continued to used it, but the worst nightmare awaits as it lurks around the corner....

And there it goes, SUPER "AWESOME" internet speed. I can't even open my facebook account??? It's like the greatest torment ever existed for indoor geeks who lived to face the computer 24/7 and only reads from Face-books. And worse more, the speed sucks to the extent that no website can be opened?? What happened?? What i see is that :

1. Fair internet speed ...................for short limit of time (Wait wait wait.... is it even 384 kbps??)
2. Unknown amount of data quota.....  i think it's less that 1 GB 
3. Deadly slow internet speed in case you accidentally used up all the datas...

Tell me what happened?? Indeed truly an eye opener.

*gasp*

Science and Faith

A question of all time : is the world created by God or formed by itself??

By looking around, there’re always clashes between Science and Religion, since the first dispute between the well known astrologist Nicholas Copernicus with the Vatican church about the question whether the earth spins around in a solar system or the sun spinning around the earth. Have you ever wondered why science and faith can never be associated together??

Maybe it’s some question with uncertain answers.

The book “Angels and Demons” is a good read regarding the megatheme of science and faith. It totally portrays the fight between the science side and the religion side in a modern warfare. The brotherhood of Illuminati VS the orthodox Vatican R.C churches, involving a new matter named “antimatter”, which is full of suspense and cliché.

Science.

Faith.

Can the two things associates together? Science created by God and science explains the God in a scientific way??

Or the two things can’t be fitted in a single file? Science proves that God is only a imaginative entity, and science is something religion say “that can lead to own destruction”??

A book worth to be read, and a huge twist is waiting at the end of the story……….

...

“Do you have children??”
“No, sir.”
“Imagine you have an eight-year-old son….. would you love him??”
“Of course”
“Would you do everything in your power to prevent pain in his life??”
“Of course.”
“Would you let him skateboard??”
“Yeah I guess… Sure, I’d let him skateboard. I’d tell him to be careful.”
“So as this child’s father, you would give him some basic, good advice and then let him go off and make his own mistakes??”
“I wouldn’t run behind him and mollycoddle him if that’s what you mean.”
“But what if he fells and skinned his knees??”
“He would learn to be more careful.”
“So although you have the power to interfere and prevent your child’s pain, you chose to show your love by letting him learn his own lesson??”
“Of course. Pain is part of growing up. It’s how we learn.”
“Exactly.”

 p.s. This part is really awesome, gonna share it in revo. XD

Nostalgic

Looking at the toothpaste staining the brand new toothbrush lightens my life up, for the moment.

I pushed the shaft in and out of my mouth, cleaning every corner of the teeth, clearing the disgusting layer felt earlier on. Seriously, why can the plague deposit so easily only after a meal?? Looking at the mirror I realized i'm looking at a guy with perplexed expression, foaming in his mouth.

Brushing with mint toothpaste under the hot hot sun is indeed a moment to enjoy.

taking out the shaft, i put it under the tap and turned it on.

Wait.

Maybe the water is still on its way.

Maybe there's somesort of delay, wait for a sec.

...

...

I screamed in exclamation, realizing that there's no water supply for now.

*gasp*

...

Tell me what are you thinking please??


There are times when things appear to be too good to us but behind, an awful price needs to be paid. The tragedy will just crept to your hind and stabs you hard in your back. Awful. Disdained. Pained. Hurted. You can only lie there, facing the sober truth laid in front of you. You should have see that coming.

Yea, i admitted i've been emotionally fragile these days.

Since the end of the holiday i've been struggling in juggle things around. I become very emotional, and at times got angry towards those who really care.

I'm sorry, really.

I start to run away when things starts to screw up. But the matter just got worse and worse and it didn't get better. Negatively speaking, what choice do i have aside from keep on running??

I just can't worrying..
I need a refuge, something tangible and solid for me to rely on. I need my own Haven.

"People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don’t. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut’s long gone, the pain still lingers."

小雨，久违了

终于可以好好哭一场

这样

谁也看不见

我的

眼

泪

Escapade @ Swiss Garden Residence @ KL.

Last weekend, i was offered a chance to escape to Kuala Lumpur to join my uncle in his wedding. He actually Booked a unit in the Swiss Garden Residence @ KL (a high class condo unit xp) to spend the weekend with his bride, as well as both my maternal grandparents and me.



If you guys hadn't get a picture of how a high class condo look like, it look like this :

The first reaction when i saw a TV in the room, i was actually dumbstrucked, as if coming across some exotic Electronic devices of all times. Sure, Television is everywhere, Plasma TV can be seen anywhere too, but absolutely not in our remote jungle college where we can't even hear from a radio...

OMGEEEEEE!!!! My grandma almost cut my hair!!!!! ><

Wedding NIght

How do i Look??

sweet couple

Since coming to this high class 6star?? 5Star?? 4 star condo unit, i might as well show you guys how luxurious it is. =)

Roti Canai Corner

French loafs/ Farmer Bread

American Breakfast

CocoCrunch, CornFlake, HONEYSTAR!!!! (all time favourite)
Guess which one is my fav?? =3

Pastries



p.s. I made some sandwiches for my housemates. =)

BurnOUT

Following the commence of the post-holiday semester, i started my new chapter of life as the vice president of the Chinese Cultural Education Society and also the Praise and Worship coordinator for the Christian Fellowship.

Honestly speaking, it's just as what my senior had said, the whole thing is going to make you feel exhausted and tired, and you had to work really really really hard to juggle between clubs, societies, family, friends, love ones, and academics, and also God. It feels like everything needs commitment and seem like you have only limited commitment to give. A sense of helplessness and Frustration.

In the past i can stay up late and wake early like a hyperactive geek.

Now, i tend to sleep more, and i can't even wake when i'm having a short nap.

Exhaustion seems to take its toll on the body and it seem to be weakening drastically for the time being.

Stress, particularly mental stress which results from the inability to complete academic syllables on time is ruining my mood day by day.

With all new task, event, project, and plans waiting to be carried out, i can feel that I'm going to burn out very very soon.

BUT

What about the commission once pledged when we first take up the post??
What about the testimony that I promised will be shown to those who doesn't realize the blessing of the almighty??
What about the personal determination that once drives me all the way??

I seem the only choice that was left  is to persist and fight hard.

But he said to me "My grace is SUFFICIENT for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness" Therefore i will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that the Christ's power may rest upon me"  ~2 Corinthians 12:9~

God give Paul a thorn in his body to humble him down.
The same,
God give us weaknesses in us to humble ourselves down.

p.s. Thanks for the angel who hold me up whenever i need comfort and encouragement.

Something to past the time... =)

Ginsky on the move!!!

You are HUMAN if you CAN READ THIS