No I never thought I will come to today in this state.
I dreamt I would be that cheerful guy, lovable by all, smart, sincere, considerate, waiting to complete the dental course and leave India for good.
But things changed.
I am not who I was anymore, and I can't seem to find the way back to the old me.
I am not who I was anymore, and I can't seem to find the way back to the old me.
I told my friend today, I am completely not suicidal, but if death were to come to me one day, anyday, I would gladly welcome it because it simply means I've got a way out of my troubled life.
I know it's unfair for my family, and friends who truly cares, but sometimes become nothing seems to be a valid way out of this life.
But death, make everything that mattered in this world into nothing. And those things that really matters, they are not bound by death.
She said 3 words that resonated within me
You have depression.
:o
Lets just say I really have depression
Will it matter?
Will the world stopped for a while by the dawn of the fact that I am depressed?
Will eople put down their work in their life and hold my hand and say, it's okay?
Will it matter?
Will the world stopped for a while by the dawn of the fact that I am depressed?
Will eople put down their work in their life and hold my hand and say, it's okay?
No.
Depression can't be seen on the outside
Unlike sickness which manifested in physical weakness,
Depression often looks like this:
Unlike sickness which manifested in physical weakness,
Depression often looks like this:
:)
In the night of the darkest kind, who is here with me braving through the storm?
Who's ready to anchor me to this life?
Who's ready to anchor me to this life?
A way out, I can only hope for.
